Monday, July 23, 2012

Cardiac rehab suspended

It is likely that cardiac rehab will be suspended...for a MONTH ... i had a meltdown over this yesterday, but today just looking for alternatives to find a place that deals with heart patients in the new orleans area.

This is pretty emotional for me. In the past few weeks, my blood pressure had dropped when I was exercising, but I could tell I was improving across the board, at least slowly. But there's such a long road to get back to where I was, and the rehab gave me the courage to go on. 

I remember a friend sending this to me before my surgery in 2009. 

Origin: 

courage 
c.1300, from O.Fr. corage, from V.L. *coraticum, from L. cor"heart," which remains a common metaphor for inner strength. InM.E., used broadly for "what is in one's mind or thoughts," hence"bravery," but also "wrath, pride, confidence, lustiness," or anysort of inclination. Replaced O.E. ellen, which

also meant "zeal, strength."

---I cried today since it means that it will take more time for me to get better.  It's hard to describe how tough this journey has been. A friend suggested I think of positive things, and focus on a picture of myself that showed myself when I was strong and not sick. I think this is one of my favorites. My mom took it at Mardi Gras about 5 years ago. So much has changed since then, but I love the blue. 


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